forbiden tenant

never once I welcomed you,

nor get butterflies over you.

you came unannounced, 

not a heads up text,

or symptoms before hand.

just, 

showed up one day and decided,

this is your home now.

you living here, 

wrecked me.

your voices are vile,

and when i forces myself to shut you up,

your silences are petrifying.

it slaughtered me into a pond of blood.

so tell me,

where should i run to?

my own mind is noxious for me,

then, where do i go?

its draining enough,

to not figuring out still who i am as a person,

now my own mind is a stranger to me?

until what length can you poisoned me?

because if its a long way still,

i wanna ceased it,

on my own.

0437 am 

23 March 2022