beau garçon

this warmth,

at times I wonder,

if it's just the butterflies burning up in my guts,

or really,

a solace that I 've been seeking for years.

all this while,

i thought love was supposed to hurt,

supposed to be hard,

comes with attached strings of agony,

and take a part of me away from myself.

but you,

you proved me wrong left and right.

you made love seems and feels so much easier,

it put me through ease and peace,

and bring out parts of me I never knew was in me.

don't get me started on that smile,

the grin & beam that stops my world for a beat,

that has been the thing i look forward to at the end of the day,

and how it releases thousands of dopamine in me.

you made me a sucker for cheesy love stories,

a huge fan of your cringiest pick-up lines,

an admirer for explanation of random science facts,

and mostly,

a lover of you.

this is so cringey but i know you'll be dissolved when you read this and want me to solidify you again,

and i'd do that for you billions of times <3 :p