a little life update & heads up for the future
(first off, the title seems dramatic and clickbait worthy but no worries its not that serious)
hello everybody, i hope you are doing well and okay. it has been quite sometimes since i last publicly posted anything here and the main reason is
im busy (read: im lazy)
but i just wanna thank everyone who read my previous blog and supporting it especially my friends who personally reached out and thanked me for it and asked me to keep doing what i love doing, that's really sweet of you people and you know who you are. that entry got so many views and had been read hundreds of times even untill this day and im indebted to everyone. never would i have thought that what i wrote at 2 in the morning would get this much recognition. thank you thank you and thank you.
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the past few months have been completely different from any other months i've experienced. i was thrown into adulthood (okay to be frank im exaggerating this) in such short period. like in november i was stressing over some essays and two months later i was stressing over where to eat for my lunch break at work???? here's some highlights of my life a few months ago (not that anyone cares) :
- i was working
it was definitely a different version of life to me (again this is an exaggeration) because a lot of things changed. i can't see most of my friends everyday, i didn't have to wake up at 6 am and be late for school, i met different people and be friends with my crackhead co workers (shout out to nad, dania and qina u guys rocks) and i also experienced alot of new things. one thing i learnt from working is its more tiring than i assumed it was and i meant that physically and emotionally. like preparing your mental that you're gonna do the same exact thing you did for the past few weeks and you find yourself getting tired of it because it drained you physically but you gotta do it anyway since you yourself chose that kind of life? so you gotta convince yourself you have to do it ? ahak i love this depressing pep talk before i go to bed >.< im kidding but yea, do appreciate your parents for working. i believe every kind of work is tiring be it retail or office work or anything. it gets quite repetitive and can be overwhelming so shoutout to every working person out there.
- im getting better at badminton
i know nobody cares but im getting amazing at badminton and i will forever be excited for it
- handling an event with my friends
its crazy to think how my friends made the event possible bcs we planned it less than 2 months and alot of things happened during the process of planning it. but somehow we managed to pull it off and im glad that we did bcs it made me closer with my friends and we made some serious memories that i'll never forget. if the people who organized this event by anyway be it from just packing stuff, organizing the finance, getting the attendance to staying after event to clean everything up are reading this, i wanna say thank you. you made it possible.
- birthdays
hello everybody, i hope you are doing well and okay. it has been quite sometimes since i last publicly posted anything here and the main reason is
im busy (read: im lazy)
but i just wanna thank everyone who read my previous blog and supporting it especially my friends who personally reached out and thanked me for it and asked me to keep doing what i love doing, that's really sweet of you people and you know who you are. that entry got so many views and had been read hundreds of times even untill this day and im indebted to everyone. never would i have thought that what i wrote at 2 in the morning would get this much recognition. thank you thank you and thank you.
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the past few months have been completely different from any other months i've experienced. i was thrown into adulthood (okay to be frank im exaggerating this) in such short period. like in november i was stressing over some essays and two months later i was stressing over where to eat for my lunch break at work???? here's some highlights of my life a few months ago (not that anyone cares) :
- i was working
it was definitely a different version of life to me (again this is an exaggeration) because a lot of things changed. i can't see most of my friends everyday, i didn't have to wake up at 6 am and be late for school, i met different people and be friends with my crackhead co workers (shout out to nad, dania and qina u guys rocks) and i also experienced alot of new things. one thing i learnt from working is its more tiring than i assumed it was and i meant that physically and emotionally. like preparing your mental that you're gonna do the same exact thing you did for the past few weeks and you find yourself getting tired of it because it drained you physically but you gotta do it anyway since you yourself chose that kind of life? so you gotta convince yourself you have to do it ? ahak i love this depressing pep talk before i go to bed >.< im kidding but yea, do appreciate your parents for working. i believe every kind of work is tiring be it retail or office work or anything. it gets quite repetitive and can be overwhelming so shoutout to every working person out there.
- im getting better at badminton
i know nobody cares but im getting amazing at badminton and i will forever be excited for it
- handling an event with my friends
its crazy to think how my friends made the event possible bcs we planned it less than 2 months and alot of things happened during the process of planning it. but somehow we managed to pull it off and im glad that we did bcs it made me closer with my friends and we made some serious memories that i'll never forget. if the people who organized this event by anyway be it from just packing stuff, organizing the finance, getting the attendance to staying after event to clean everything up are reading this, i wanna say thank you. you made it possible.
- birthdays
im an adult???? my birthday was a bit different this year since im staying in. i spent my bday with my family by watching a random grandma in india cooks. like this one she cooks fish with banana????? i love watching her cooks like she's so chill???? she doesn't even speak throughout the video like? dis link pls watch.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R4wo3Rgqti8
i received alot of warm wishes as well and i will forever be grateful for it. thank you to everyone, your wishes meant alot to me :D
special shoutout to my amazing gworl who drive thru'ed mcd and got me my favourite burger and then baked me fruit tarts and bought me a really beautiful pump jar and drive allllll the way to my house on my bday. i love you alot sara and you know that. and mummy who made me a really sedap seri muka u da kiyutest mummy <3
- quarantine
i haven't been out of house since 14th of march because i planned to go out on 19th march. then, malaysia announced its mco that started on 18th. since im a good citizen i've been staying in even before it started and haven't been out of my house (except i went to my cousin's which is few houses away) until today. as im writing this its 4th of may. which means i haven't been outside of my house for 51 days. FIFTY ONE YE NOT FIFTEEN. its crazy how im still sane. now im thinking about it i really dont know what i did for the past 51 days HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA all i can think about is i tried making dalgona few times though i can't drink milk or take any caffeine, i also made kek batik for a few times, i started watching elite and being obsessed with the cast. also an appreciation to my friends for keeping me entertained during quarantine with your close friend's content, and by texting me. and sara for keeping me sane EVERYDAY u da bes besfren.
- life lessons
(tw bcs this is pretty sad)
i also experienced a few huge life lessons and im grateful that i got to learnt that now rather than later in life because it hurts quite bad and kinda break me from myself. i learnt how to look at things differently than i usually did, realizing how much comfort lies hurt much more than the bitter truth, and sometimes staying silent is better than not getting heard. these kind of lessons doesn't and will never happen overnight but its a journey that i sometimes find myself being sailed away from it. but that is a big part of the process and i gotta keep trying. it happens gradually so as time passed i'll get better with it and i cannot wait for the day to come.
that's some of the highlights of my life few months back that i wanted to share here because i'd like to look at these back hehe. thank you for reading it though i really don't know why you did but thank you, really.
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college life is coming to me wayyyyy faster than i thought it would and im pretty pumped but kinda scared because you best believe i've never been away from home more than 4 days. definitely seeing myself crying over missing my room and my fridge and my mom and dad and my house and everything about it. damn it. now already want to cry, how?!
hence the heads up. im off to college soon (real soon) and that will definitely be my #1 priority for a few years. i'd not be posting anything as much as i used to (lets be real its not that much but pls pretend its much) since i want to focus and really put my mind into it and of course enjoying my new chapter of life gitewh. so this will be the last entry for a few months but if you see me randomly post anything here just ignore that pls hahahahaha.
i hope everyone will be well in the upcoming months and if you're not just know its part of the process and it proves that you are moving in life. it will humble you with heartbreaks, hardships, setback and of course traumatic scenarios. whatever it is, always believe its for the better and you will be better.
stay safe and be well.
love,
suraya
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R4wo3Rgqti8
i received alot of warm wishes as well and i will forever be grateful for it. thank you to everyone, your wishes meant alot to me :D
special shoutout to my amazing gworl who drive thru'ed mcd and got me my favourite burger and then baked me fruit tarts and bought me a really beautiful pump jar and drive allllll the way to my house on my bday. i love you alot sara and you know that. and mummy who made me a really sedap seri muka u da kiyutest mummy <3
- quarantine
i haven't been out of house since 14th of march because i planned to go out on 19th march. then, malaysia announced its mco that started on 18th. since im a good citizen i've been staying in even before it started and haven't been out of my house (except i went to my cousin's which is few houses away) until today. as im writing this its 4th of may. which means i haven't been outside of my house for 51 days. FIFTY ONE YE NOT FIFTEEN. its crazy how im still sane. now im thinking about it i really dont know what i did for the past 51 days HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA all i can think about is i tried making dalgona few times though i can't drink milk or take any caffeine, i also made kek batik for a few times, i started watching elite and being obsessed with the cast. also an appreciation to my friends for keeping me entertained during quarantine with your close friend's content, and by texting me. and sara for keeping me sane EVERYDAY u da bes besfren.
- life lessons
(tw bcs this is pretty sad)
i also experienced a few huge life lessons and im grateful that i got to learnt that now rather than later in life because it hurts quite bad and kinda break me from myself. i learnt how to look at things differently than i usually did, realizing how much comfort lies hurt much more than the bitter truth, and sometimes staying silent is better than not getting heard. these kind of lessons doesn't and will never happen overnight but its a journey that i sometimes find myself being sailed away from it. but that is a big part of the process and i gotta keep trying. it happens gradually so as time passed i'll get better with it and i cannot wait for the day to come.
that's some of the highlights of my life few months back that i wanted to share here because i'd like to look at these back hehe. thank you for reading it though i really don't know why you did but thank you, really.
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college life is coming to me wayyyyy faster than i thought it would and im pretty pumped but kinda scared because you best believe i've never been away from home more than 4 days. definitely seeing myself crying over missing my room and my fridge and my mom and dad and my house and everything about it. damn it. now already want to cry, how?!
hence the heads up. im off to college soon (real soon) and that will definitely be my #1 priority for a few years. i'd not be posting anything as much as i used to (lets be real its not that much but pls pretend its much) since i want to focus and really put my mind into it and of course enjoying my new chapter of life gitewh. so this will be the last entry for a few months but if you see me randomly post anything here just ignore that pls hahahahaha.
i hope everyone will be well in the upcoming months and if you're not just know its part of the process and it proves that you are moving in life. it will humble you with heartbreaks, hardships, setback and of course traumatic scenarios. whatever it is, always believe its for the better and you will be better.
stay safe and be well.
love,
suraya