life update // august 2018

hello and hi sisters ( im not james charles ). i finally can open my blog because i forgot how to open my blog lmao. i've been keeping this in my drafts so here you go a new entry !

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 well , these past months , alot of things happens . so many feelings yet so little time . its a learning process indeed . i learned so much and improved so much , well i rather say changed . i changed , a lot . i tend to become more and more secretive . i dont talk about my feelings that much . i dont know . its just that i know that people are not gonna care about me deeply anyways . people are not gonna care about anyone deeply . you , no one cares about you deeply and you need to learn that , now . life gets tougher days by days and if you can't get that now , future you will be so sad . the person you are texting everyday now , will eventually stop texting you everyday . the person that asked how are you feeling at times will start asking it , rarely . the person you loved the most now , well you better hope that they will love you as much as you do .

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eventually everything will past . every sadness , every happiness , every memories , everyone .  so you have to suck it up and continue it . its a long and hard journey but you'll get through it . don't be a crybaby . you are strong and better than this . cry . suck it up and move the hell on . you won't be a better you if you're stucked in this toxic stage with toxic people ( that you loved and still are ) . its hard . but you are not that easy anyways . 

sometimes the people who you thought loved you are the one who hurted you . who breaks that heart . who actually is toxic . try your best please , to cut them off . slowly . you'll be bettter without them . dont let LOVES are the reason you okayed everything . dont let FRIENDSHIPs are the reason you okayed everything . dont let BESTFRIENDS are the reason you okayed the fact that your emotions are being destroyed .

its okay to love . its okay to care . its okay to get hurted . but not too much . don't love someone too much . leave some for yourself . don't care too much . care about you first .  don't get hurted too much . stop letting people hurt you  . don't get attached too much . because one day its gonna be gone . so enjoy this soon-to-end-happy-moment before it actually ends .

whatever it is , i hope you'll get through this stage . your time will came soon . be patient and hang in there just a bit . i know you can do this . come on

anyway , these are some of the things that i've been keeping for a long time and i finally let it out . i hope you're doing amazing and have a good and blessed day ahead <3

x,

aisha